Thursday, February 22, 2018

What 2017 Has Taught Me



I've gone through the hardest part of my life in 2017 (so far la).Yes, I did it. I can't put it into words bcoz it was hard for me. I try not to cry, mourn and I pull myself together to be as strong as I could. I won't let anything or anyone make me down. Whatever happen, happens. This is my battle. My journey. My life. The first quarter of this year is the most hectic and tough for me. The pressure to complete my Fyp within 4 months, at the same time preparation of exhibition, presentation, and report for the subject Comparative study was really no joke. The schedule was so packed and tight. Thankfully I've family and friends who always support me. You don't know how many times I think of giving up and at the same time, I've no choice but to continue anyway. Life goes on. We cannot be stuck in the same place forever. Move on.

Q: How do I see myself as an artist?

My sister asks me this, about identity. for a long time ago, I was questioned about this too. bcoz after she looks at my design, she said it was lack of identity. she said I lost myself. bcoz her sister that she knew was really love drawing more than painting. I admit, she is not totally wrong about me. But she might forget or don't know the fact that colouring comes first in my life before drawing. it's about 18 years back, I really in love with colours. I enter so many competition and neither one I win, but I don't mind. 

The thing is I'm not changed, but I found myself. Maybe I am multipotentialite. I love all about arts. I love painting, drawing, sketching, painting, graphics, illustrating, editing, and writing. But I can't do it at once. It depends on my mood and situation. My identity is not something you can define. But if you ask what is my speciality or strength?

 I think it is 'the ability to listen to what my inner voice said to me.' Not everyone can hear it bcoz the 'outside voices' were very loud or maybe they pretend not to hear it.  Ask yourself, what you love the most? who you want to be?  and try to listen carefully to what your inner voice will say. Yes, that small voice inside you.

And please, don't underestimate the power of yourself. Don't let your doubts, you inferior and your weakness become your obstacles and boycott you. You are far way smarter than what you think. Be yourself and be okay with it.

Q: How did I start?

I start with what I have first. I didn't start with watercolour, I start doing editing service. If you have a laptop, why don't you install photoshop and explore? I didn't plan to be what I am right now. I just do it what I can do with what I have. During that time, I don't have enough money to start my business, I try doing editing first, editing for social media templates etc. then people ask me to do graphic design, I make a logo, product design and so on. I learn from scratch, I try to make my own logo. From there, they told me that I can do more. Why not trying textile design? it was very challenging in the first place, and even now. it is So hard that makes me want to learn more.

As I told before this, I don't have a proper education in fine arts or digital arts, I learn from any free resources I can get and learn by making tons of mistakes. Try and adjust. It such a long journey, then I bought a drawing tablet, scanner, watercolour tools etc. using the money that I got from commission works. I didn't buy it at once, but one by one based on priority. I told my friend who have some difficulties and doesn't have a laptop , that she can make arts with pen and paper, bcoz she is a talented artist. at least she has a phone that has internet access, then she has everything. she can sell her arts. No more excuse. Nowadays, we need to be more creative than technology, think less and do more.


-Amal-

Saturday, October 8, 2016

Metafora Kehidupan



DIMANA AKU?

Di suatu sudut.
Sudut yang sudah lama tidak aku lewati.
Kosong.
Tiada siapa disitu kecuali aku.

Aku sendiri tidak tahu dimana aku.
Tetapi disini, aku merasa tidak asing.
Kerana sering kali aku tercampak ke sini.
Tiada sebab. Tanpa konteks.

Sudah puas aku meraung ..tolong aku..
Tapi Hampa.
Hanya sunyi menemaniku.
Sepi. Dan terlalu.

Di sudut itu,
Hanya aku seorang,
Sendiri. 
Tiada siapa tahu.

Jadi aku namakan sudut itu sebagai.. Kebuntuan.

. . . . . 

Aku inginkan sebuah jawapan,
Tanpa persoalan.

Sayangnya, bukan mudah
sedang kau tidak tahu, apa lagi mengerti..
lalu terus dengan sangkaan.

Jadi biarlah masa yang menjawab 
segala persoalan dan.. kebuntuan.


Yang masih buntu,
QausuQuzahin
IIUM, Gombak.
8 Oktober 2016
12:57 PM




Saturday, September 17, 2016

PRACTICAL TRAINING : Pejabat Tanah & Jajahan Bachok - Episod 1 (3rd Year Sem 3, 2015/16)

Alhamdulillah.. segala puji bagi Allah.. tamat sudah intership saya di Pejabat Tanah dan Jajahan Bachok. (PTB) hoho. finoli..

How should I put this into words ya? Too many things to share. nak nasi campur ngan speaking sikit bulih dok? haha ..Mood speaking terabur dah datang. But before that, I want acknowledge to those who always help me during my internship here. (copy paste dari report je pon._.)



AKNOWLEDGMENT

“In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Most Merciful.”

Praise be to Allah for three (3) months I undergo my internship that begins on mid-June this year till end of August, I finally successfully completed my Industrial training report. For past 3 months, I pray to Allah hoping my journey is in His bliss. I also would like to extend my thankfulness to the most precious persons in my life, my father and mother for all their moral support, financial support and also to my friends for never ending reminding me to always be honest and trustworthy during my training here.

I would like to express my gratitude and appreciation to Pejabat Tanah dan Jajahan Bachok especially to my supervisor, Hj Wan Mohammad b. Wan Abdullah, for the guidance, support and opportunity that have been given to me to learn ,explore and experience new things and knowledge. Thank you so much for your cooperation during this practical training. It really does helps me a lot. Furthermore I would also like to acknowledge with much appreciation the crucial role of the staff in Technical Unit, Pejabat Tanah dan Jajahan Bachok , Mr. Rasid, Mr Zaki, Mr.Riduan, Mr Norlida,Mr.Sajuri, Mr. Ros Madi, Mr Yusri,Mrs.Masitah and Mrs.Noraini.  A special thanks to Mr. Mohd Nor Hisham for sharing great information and more knowledge about Land Act and Legaslation in Malaysia. May Allah bless you all. Thank you so much.

________

Jadi sepanjang 2 bulan setengah Intern di PTB ni banyak yang saya belajar. Banyak pengalaman baru (sangat ._.) Dan yang paling penting I dapat drive kereta kuro ( Volkswegen) tau..haha kau hado? hee .. 

Hensem kan?? :D

Ingat lagi masa first day lapor diri dulu 20/6/16 , depa tanya kos apa? I cakap Perancang Bandar, then they decide to put me in Technical Unit. Katanya kena sikit dengan kos tu. Frankly speaking, boleh lah.. ada la relate sikit2.

#Kenapa Pejabat Tanah & Jajahan Bachok?
Actually, I tak pernah terpikiaq pon nak intern kat sini. Memula haritu beria nak praktikal kat Majlis Daerah Bachok. First choice pulak tu, no.2 tak silap JPS, no.3 JKR Bachok. Pendek kata, tak de dalam perancangan langsung. hoho.. Then pihak KAED minta kita sendiri follow up dengan agensi. Unfortunately, lepas banyak kali call MDB , depa cakap situ ada quota jadi tak dapat terima student lagi. Waduss.. sadis..hancur luluh harapan aku. :'( me is so sad..awat tak habaq awal2 kan.. Tak apalah tak ada rezeki, nak buat cemana kan. Kak Suzy (staff kaed) suh aku pilih satu je tempat. Bila duk pikir lelama, tak kira la macam mana aku nak intern kat Kelate jugak.

Aku tanya Abah,then dia suh apply kat office tempat dia kerja dulu, the thing is tempat tu kat KB, nun jauh disana..hmm  pastu dia suggest kt SUK.. tu pun KB jugak. Aku kalau boleh nak yang dekat2 je..tak payah masuk bandar. Kalau nak sangat bandar ke apa baik aku intern kat KL je senang, naik public hari2..hoho..( kalau private agency at least ,dapat jgk la elaun..)  Ada gak Abah suh intern kat area Subang ke Shah Alam ke.. tapi tu lah banyak benda nak kena pikir, sewa rumah la, transport la, macam2.. aku ni jenis yang malas nak complicated kan hidup ni. Lagi pun bulan puasa kot.. bila lagi nak puasa kat rumah kan?.

Fikir punya fikir,  sambil 2 aku duk google map cari tempat intern, aku ter'perasan' kewujudan PTB ni..then aku terus contact pihak PTB, aku try la call.. tak expect lebih pun. Cuba nasib je. Alhamdulillah.. aku diterima. Apa nak jadi pun jadilah.. yang penting dah dapat tempat intern. Yang lain aku berserah je la. 

(Spot Kak Ma disitu ^^)

# So macam mana first day Intern?
Lepas selesai urusan lapor diri, aku terus turun ke Unit Teknikal. Katanya kena jumpa dengan 'Wan Mat' , my supervisor. Aku disambut dengan gembira oleh Abe Qi (En,Zaki)dan Abe Yi (En.Sajuri) . Suddenly, depa ajak aku pegi site 'Aduan Awam' kat Perupok. Kaget jugaklah , ye lah first day kan tak expect pulak akan terus turun padang. hoho.. Basically, kami buat pemantauan je. Awkward sikit.. tapi aku cuba biasakan diri dengan diorang. Tak ada hal lah.. okay je.

Balik daripada site tu, aku diberi tunjuk ajar oleh Kak Ma cara-cara buat 'Pelan Sureh' dengan menggunakan software Map Info. Tak susah mana pun. 

(Bangga rasanya dapat sign benda alah ni..haha :D)
# Pengalaman yang tak dapat dilupakan
Ingat lagi masa tu dalam minggu pertama intern, aku ikut Abe Sik (En.Rasid) & Abe Duan (En.Riduan) pergi 'menyukat' (istilah Pejabat Tanah) (macam land survey) dekat Melor kalau tak silap la..hoho maafla ingatan akak ni ingat2 lupa gitu -..-" nak cerita pun tak reti, tapi pendek cerita, rumah Mak Cik A (bukan nama sebenar) ni kebakaran awal tahun ni. Jadi nak apply rumah .** rakyat. tak ingat lagi..huhu tapi ada isu sikit dari segi pembahagian lot. Tapi bukan itu main point kat sini, ceritanya masa jumpa dengan Mak Cik A ni , dia datang dekat dan tetiba peluk aku dengat erat. Aku agak terkesima. Seingat aku, last time orang peluk aku macam tu ialah Mok..(Mok peluk aku sambil nangis2 masa aku dapat result SPM dulu..hoho over dopp?)

Masa tu aku tak tahu lagi cerita pasal rumah Mak Cik A terbakar tu. Lepas tu baru aku tahu. Blank seketika. Tak apalah ,aku okay je.. hehe.. dia pegang tangan aku erat-erat sambil duk cerita kisah pilu hidupnya tu. Rumahnya habis terbakar,hangus dijilat api dan dia masa kejadian tu cuma sehelai sepinggang. Allahu..berat ujian dia. Aku dengar je. Nak pujuk2 orang ni tak berapa reti sangat. Cuma aku cakap, sabarlah pasti ada hikmah disebalik ujian ni. Semoga Mak Cik A tabah dalam mengharungi segalanya. Ameen..




Nak cerita semua kat sini macam banyak la pulak.. jadi boleh tak kalau akak sambung lain kali? sakit pulak mata tenung skrin lama-lama.. huhu.. kalau ada masa akak sambung ye.. Mianhe..

Yang masih amatur,
Amalina Husin
IIUM, Gombak
17 September 2016
11:13 PM

Thursday, May 26, 2016

#Throwback SEM 1,15/16 (3rd year, Sem 1, 2015/16)


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Asal tetiba nak throwback ni? saja je.. baru teringat tak cerita langsung pasal sem 1 dulu.. sem 1 lepas kitorang buat Draft State Structure Plan Melaka (Rancangan Struktur Negeri Melaka).


"Melaka Bandaraya Bersejarah, Melaka maju,Fasa Kedua, Negeriku Sayang, Melaka Bandar Teknologi Hijau, Melaka 753 tahun."


Saja nak cite ni sementara ingatan masih kuat. Benda ni untuk i baca 20 tahun lagi mungkin. Masa tu mungkin gambar dah hilang entah kemana kot..ye lah kan..mana tahu kot akak terlanggar dinding ke apa pastu hilang ingatan ke ke lupa diri ke apa..haa..harap bila baca balik benda ni akak akan ingat balik memori masa study dulu.


#THROWBACK

Day 1: Friday (2/10/2015)

Harini kami (studiomate) pergi Majlis Bandaraya Melaka Bersejarah (MBMB) untuk briefing tentang Melaka. Kebetulan masa tu UiTM puncak Alam ke apa (if i'm not mistaken) buat study pasal SSP Melaka jugak.

(Pinjam yang Ila punya..hee)
Sem ini i tukar sector, asyik buat traffic je kan..so i tukar ambil sector infrastructure and utilities. I satu grup ngan Wani, then weolls berkolabrasi dengan grup satu lagi bersama Ila dan Suliana. I incharge in Telekomunication,ICT & Solid Waste management (SWM). Mula2 i contact ngan PIC Tm Melaka, so i pergi Tm untuk dapatkan data komunikasi di Melaka. Unfortunately, we didn't manage to get the data because it's very confidential and private. Its okay, kami faham.



Lepas tu kitorang gi check in hotel di Banda Hilir dulu. Selesa dan harganya agak berpatutan.


(lupa dah nama tempat ni..huhu)


Day 2: Saturday (3/10/2015)

Sebenarnya sector yang kitorang cover tak perlukan primary data sangat,mostly depend on secondary data.Jadi bila pergi site nampak macam pergi bercuti sikit. hoho..Malasnya nak taip.. i tunjuk gambar je la ye..huhu


(Melaka Gateway)
(Malay House)

(Dah kenapa??..haha)
(P muar tak rasa mee bandung memang tak sah..)

(Dapat naik free..so naik je la..haha ni kat antara johor -melaka. Jerebu kuat masa ni.. sebab tu nampak putih je pemandangan)
(Mai Melaka of course la kena pegi Pantai Klebang :D)
(Yeah.. site visit Melaka ni banyak habis duit bab makan je.. try asam pedas la pulak)

Day 3: Sunday (4/10/2015)

(Kat Masjid Tanah kalau tak silap..)

(Orang Melaka mesti tahu tempat ni kat mana)

(tak de keja..hoho)

(Pekena ikan bakar.. ni Prof belanja..hehe)

(Studiomate kesayangan.. Tq Prof Azeez & Prof Zin , Pic and all members for your cooperation ^^)

Day 4 : Monday (5/10/2015)

Untuk hari keempat ni, kami cuma pergi area Bandar Melaka untuk dapatkan secondary data yang mintak hari Jumaat lepas.

(Tengok dari jauh je..)
Overall, SSP ni seingat i dia more on policy making. Masa ni i dah retire jadi editor..haa finoli.. rasa lega sikit..bolehlah i nak ber'bisness sikit..hee.. tak de lah.. bagi peluang kat orang lain pulak. Ada yg lagi berbakat kot, rugi kalau tak diasah. Actually semua orang boleh jadi editor and graphic team, cuma nak kena rajin belajar je. Tak de hal lah..biasa i letak cover report kat sini kan.. tapi untuk sem ni tak ada sebab i tak compile rasanya.. i ada snap tapi tak tahu letak kat mana folder tu.. Kitorang buat saiz A5 untuk draft SSP..untuk technical lupa saiz apa tapi rasanya saiz A3 cuma di square kan gitu . 

Lepas siap technical  report, kitorang buat draft SSP, yang perit pasal technical report ni bab data je..kalau ada data memang nice..kalau takde terpaksalah refer ssp yang lama tu.hoho nak buat macam mana kan.. bukan senang nak cari data dengan time consuming ni.. ada banyak lagi assignment lain nak kena submit pulak tu. Jadi begitulah..sekadarnya. At least kita belajar sesuatu yang baru kan..

Ok lah chow dulu... ada jodoh kita sambung lagi..Assalamualaikum..

Yang rajin,
Amalina Husin
Jelawat, Bachok
26 Mei 2016
12:12 PM

Sunday, April 24, 2016

~LIFE ~ (3rd year, Sem 2, 2015/16)

Assalamualaikum..

Currently at studio..hmm stay up. Sekarang tengah tunggu layout siap, pastu boleh proceed dengan master plan. This sem kitorang prepare DPR( Development Proposal Report) atau dalam bahasa melayunya 'Laporan Cadangan Pemanjuan' Kg Sungai Mulia, Gombak.

Ni master plan yang crit 1..
 tapi lepas tu ada banyak perubahan. tak sama dah 360 darjah. Banyak nak kena baiki dan kena consider banyak benda.
Kami akan cuba sedaya upaya mengekalkan identiti kampung ini.

So, dipendekkan cerita site ni lebih kurang 110 ekar keselurahannya. Dikenali sebagai kampung tradisi. Akhir bulan 2 haritu kami buat site visit ke Kg Sungai Mulia.


Pstu kami join program 'Pasar Kasih Sayang' yang dianjurkan oleh SK Agama Zaid Harithah (if i'm not mistaken. huhu) Mengaplikasikan konsep 'Free market'.


Hari kedua site visit, kami sambung balik meronda kampung for our study purpose. Memandangkan tak banyak secondary data yang diperoleh.


Nice view in Kg Sungai Mulia


Macam tulah dipedekkan ceritanya. Lepas site visit kami buat technical report--> layout--> master plan--> DPR. Macam 1st year dulu, cuma yang ni kita buat dalam group. Lain sikit kaedahnya. haa..

AGD URP 16' Traditional Theme

Akhir kata, doakan kami berjaya menyiapkan projek kami sem ini. Memandangkan ini studio last kami, harapnya kami dapat buat yang terbaik. Insya Allah..

Yang rajin,
Amalina Mat Husin
KAED, IIUM
24 April 2016
04:23 AM